Day with Daddy and Dear Dear

今天，Dear Dear 难得周末没上班所以早餐陪我和爸爸妈妈去吃鱼头米。
很难的，就只有我们4个。(^_^)v
现在他还陪爸爸看足球，我觉得很温馨。
因为爸爸总是一个人吃饭，看戏，喝茶。
难得可以和Dear Dear 合得来。
上几个星期，我在房间等了他很久，见他没上来觉得奇怪。
原来，爸爸和他聊天。
当我知道后，我觉得很开心因为爸爸有聊天的对象。我觉得开心因为这一刻我觉得爸爸不孤单。
也许，对很多人来说这是很普通的事，可是对我来说很欣慰因为能和爸爸合得来谈天的
真是少之又少。
心理暗暗的在感谢dear dear,为我所作的。
谢谢你，谢谢老天爷

What a day..

Mum was sick, i have been helping her to do most of her housework and make sure she took her medicine since last night. This morning, FatWOmen called.. knowing mum was sick.. she decided not to come back(for the sake of her children) she even asked me to take care of mum on the phone.. this is so irresponsible.. arent you mum's daughter as well? she always push away responsibility just because she of her children and family.. i m not sure if this is a proper way.. but i can say that she is a failure in life that she can only take care of one side and ignore her own parents... dont ever try to doubt her on this.. she will say.. why not you try to take care of this 3 kids and see.. well.. i believe you have full responsibility for both side.. you cant just push it to others.. cause its your own parents... i m just sighing that mum's beloved daughter is being so selfish.
Another beloved son..
Mum wanted to cook breakfast for them.. even though she is sick..
she even went to the market to get the ingredient..
It was kind of late for breakfast actually.. when she was half way cooking brunch for his son,he just drop this sentence
" too hungry to wait anymore..." then he went out for his brunch...
well.... what can i say? but.. apparently that she say nothing..
bonjour~~~

病猫的歌

今天的我，居然还在生病！！！！！！！！！！！！！
手上拿着手帕和病魔在拼~~
kanasai它想要了我的命？？？

写意的病假

今天下雨了，家里只有爸妈和弟弟。
妈妈在厨房忙晚餐，爸爸在客厅看电视，
肥弟弟在客厅上网（因为太肥，总是没什么动）我就躺在客厅画画,头还是有点痛。
下雨天的凉快让我觉得很清爽。
虽然还未从感冒完全好会，可是那写意的气氛让这旁晚变得在平凡中有点不平凡的幸福。
我的心情也变得好起来。(^_^)
吃完晚餐，我们都一起在看电视。今晚，电视播了妈妈的乡下
现在不写了，欠揍的弟弟一直在作弄我。

病猫

假期居然生病了。
我的假期就这样煲汤了。
今天还算可以写，那天真的是灵魂不见了。
最可怜的事，居然病入膏肓的时候我是一个人在家！！！
全身无力和无助的感觉很寂寞。喝水和吃药都没力， 那种感觉很不喜欢。
讨厌无助和寂寞一起来。
臭病魔，你给我把你自己锁起来，滚开！！

Breathtaking moment

24th July 2010
I went out at 8 to send my bf sister to exam. It was a bad morning because got mixed up with the map. Nearly caused her late for exam.
After dropping her to the center i went to Blossom cafe to look for my favourite strawberry cheese cake to cheer me up a little bit.
I decided to had breakfast alone while waiting for her 2 hour exam.
When i was enjoying the moment with myself, i turned over and saw my Hubby walking in to the cafe.
I couldnt believe my eyes when i saw him there, he was suppose to be in bed at that time. Well, you may tot he is doing something suspecious but ITS NOT!!
He went to the cafe just to buy my favourite strawberry cheese cake for my monthly surprise!!Oh god, i was so surprise when i saw him standing there.. well.. we both were surprise actually... my heart beated fast cause i was so HAPPY
He came all the way after his night shift just because he had promise to give me 1 surprise every month. He reached the shop earlier and the girl said the cake is not ready, then he went back to the car and waited for the cake to be ready. this is why i didnt see him and he didnt know that i was having my breakfast here.
It was the best moment i ever had in life. We both were at the same place for the same thing without special arrangement. That's amazing~~~..
After that we both had a great time enjoying our breakfast.


For the very first time in my life, i believed in destiny.
A destiny for 2 lovely couples to met each other. Be faithful
Thank you so much for who ever from the sky that have done so much for me.

今天的故事

今天，我放下了。

前天，和小气的朋友闹得很不爽。这两天都不开心，可是今天我主动放下去和她谈天.我们都很开心。毕竟，过去了就让它过去。我那杀那真的体会到放下得开心。

今晚，在Starbuck等了两小时。也忍了两小时尿，还因吃太快胃痛了。很可惜，付出的不被珍惜反而受到很恶劣的对待。现在，肚子痛得是胃还是尿毒攻心都分不出了。

算了吧，今天有开心过就够了。
谢谢您，老天爷爷。

I am another susan boyle

Not sure if words can describe how i feel now.
its been quite sometime that i have not been writing on my happy feelings.
Last Friday, just finished one unexpected presentation.
Right after the presentation, people came over and congratulate me.
Well, i was like, what is going on? that's just a presentation. They came over telling me that it was a great presentation, beautiful gal with beautiful voice.
My team mates and my colleague was so nervous as i have been very tension with this presentation but eventually everyone was surprised when i open my mouth.
For the very first time, i receive such a great compliment. I didnt know that my voice are beautiful and i have American accent!That's funny.
I guess this is the first time i have got myself recognized on something.

i am Sick again

just came back from tiring hongkong trip.
nose phlegm got blood.
face too dry
headache and body aching..
its coldddd
yet i have to sit in such a heavy place.
its so torturing...
god please....
why am i getting sick always.. have i neglected my health recently?.. well, i guess i cant remember when was the last time i exercise..
i hate falling sick.. its so lonely.. cause you feel helpless but you cant request for more.. cause its useless and you wont get it when you request for more care...
i just dont like it.. being so weak without someone here for me.. its so lonely..
sigh.. what have i done.. why is it has to be me?

我一个人，能做的很少

10th March 2010, 9.58am.
胃很痛，身体很累，小腹的痛又来了。
最近发生太多事，已经忘记多久没休息，没平静。看医生都没时间。
一坡未平，一坡又起而我只是一个人，不知道能做多少也不知道能顶多久。
老天爷， 你又要训练我吗？
可是，只有我一个，哭了苦了身边没人知，别这样对我好吗？
I am just one person, just a little women.
All i hope is a little bit more care from someone
cause its so hard to battle alone
今天，胃真的很痛。。。。

爸妈老了

每年的年28至年30，家里都在忙打扫。
记忆中，爸妈一定会吵架。
妈会埋怨 爸不帮忙或越帮越忙。
爸会骂妈手脚慢，耽误拜神吉时。
气氛会很沉重因为爸妈不合。

今年的年28至年30， 家里不同了。
爸很努力打扫
抹墙壁，搬东西，扫地，洗尘，家里两楼都是他一手包办。
就算我们帮忙，他也要占大部分来做。
妈不舒服病倒了
天气盟日，妈在厨房做饼，煮饭，过年的食单在她手里。
功夫太多，我和嫂嫂也帮不完。
两老在年30前把该做的都做完。
累得再年初一， 躺在客厅不想动。

爸说老了，做多两下腰骨都散了。
妈说，是时候认老了。
妈妈帮爸爸察背这些难得的温馨情景，令我感觉到心理的日度。
可悲吗？不，因为当在可悲的事里出现温情时，才会令人珍惜这些感动。
才体验到正真的快乐。

就如我一直相信，这世界不会完全美好
因为它一直在努力的平衡所有。

对吧？

1 个小时前， 情人节刚过了。
2 月出生的我，是浪漫双鱼座。
3 年的情人节都没浪漫，让人不知所错。
40 年左右才一次的年初一情人节，我居然没错过。

不知道从何开始，我很渴望爱情里出现浪漫的情结。
可惜，我慢慢领悟人生总是很难得到渴望的东西。
就因如此，很多东西我都去接受。

我今天不开心吗？我也不懂。
今年的情人节，在大年初一正搞笑。
也许，人生有多无奈的事，人类都会选择接受。
然而，当你遇上这些你没有选择的事时， 难免会些有伤感。
因为如果你有更大的勇气或力量，你是不会希望这样。
对吧？

He is different now

Its 8th of February. Month that i was born. Pieces,represents romance
26th years of my life, i found someone important in my life.

When i was unhappy,he wrote there: regardless how bad is ur temper, i will still love u. I just wants to love you.
When i was away, he wrote there : After we were far apart,i was surprised that..i miss you terribly. He used to be very unpredictable

That day, he hand over a new tooth brush to me, saying that he realized mine was torn out.He was a careless man back there
Some day when i was in really bad mood,he asked " will you be happier with baskin robin ice cream?" i shake my head. he continued " what can make you at least smile?". Words that he hardly speak.He used to ignore
These days, he vacum and mop the floor, clean the kitchen and the toilet. He starts to remember every words of mine.

He wasn't such a lovely and caring guy when i know him but things change.
He is different now.
i am deeply blessed and glad bout all this.
Thank you so much my dear dear

Training from Someone above

its 8pm and i am still in office.
Not that i had many things to do but i just cant go off cause of transportation issue. I am tired of this matter but i cant help.
I feel peace at this moment, perhaps i have accepted the fact.
人不会轻易得到想要的，
因为太容易反而不会珍惜。
人总是会为得不到的而愤怒/不开心，
其实它是希望我们会懂得去接受
接受你现在眼前拥有的，身边存在的。
不然，很容易错失
可是，这世界太多贪念．
有多少人，真的能停下看看身边的一些？
我相信有，不过稀有．　

That's just something that i have to take it

Moving to new team, finally had a chance to take year end leave and CNY leave. Who knows boss just change his management saying people who have kids has the priority during school holidays. This has just freaks me off. Jumping out from previous team because of all this ridiculous rules. End up face the same path.

Is that just life? I often cant get what i want and i just have to force myself to adapt what is given and what is in front. That's just so heart breaking when things just keep repeating and i had to adjust myself to accept and adapt to unwanted desire and things again and again.

When i was 12, i told myself that all the hard life i face now will have and edge of it. Life will get better when i graduate from highschool cause i will get my freedom.

When i turn into my Uni, i met my first love life and i suffer in it. Well, that's really an unexpected path. I thought that i will be studying abroad like my siblings. Something that i have been awaiting so much but it turn out to be a disappointment Uni and love life.

When i started to work, its even more dramatic.

All i can see is, someone just has to force us to learn how to adapt. At one point you may tot you have actually pass your examination but its actually One down , more to come.

It has been quite sometime

Cant remember that how long haven had the time to sit down comfortably and rest with peace of mind. It has been really hectic of life. Recently had really bad dreams at night, waking up feeling fatique. That's really oweful.
Trying to recall of the dream but cant really remember what i had in it. Just leaving tones of odd feelings that makes my emotion fluctuate.
It should be something like a story of both lovers, women that fall in love with a man that is not that into it. I think i was in that women's situation when i dreamt of this love story and the disappointment feeling left in my body when i woke up.
The feeling of couldnt reach a level of understanding between lovers, bad treatment from friends, unhappy childhood and family hood.
Well.. hoping to pull it off at times.. i guess it takes time.
I think it has been quite sometime that i didnt really rest myself. I am drained out and totally souless.

Its the beginning of 2010, and i cant remember when was the last time i lie on my bed resting with hassel free.
It has been quite sometime that i didnt had a real conversation with my closest one.
It has really been quiet sometime that i didnt really had a chance to sleep well.
and lastly, i guess
it has been quite sometime that i have lost myself. . .

Something comfortable

looking at the christmas reddish flower and the purplish forget me not flower on my desk makes my sight comfortable today.
Listening to light and relaxing songs from David Archuleta, Tom Baxter makes me emotionally calm.
I suppose there will be lots of things could pull a person down in a day.
The matter of how you get yourself out of it, its pretty much depends on yourself..whether you want to do it or not.
Try to pull yourself out of current situation for sometime could help you gain some different tots. It may help you in your difficulties sometimes.

Carless, Speechless and Pointless

K i lead a life without a car in a BEAUTIFUL country that has the worst public transport facilities.dont ever think of the FANTASTIC taxi cause it has also the highest rape case from taxi driver in this country.-->Carless
Then i had the most FABULOUS mind own business S******* in the world that no one had ever had. Its raining and i have to get my ****i** ways back home.Even though this HANDSOME is going back to the same way-->Speechless
I am nothing but FANTABULOUSLY kind of pissed. no i am not pissed, i am just EXTREMELY stress, tired, exhausted, drained out on selfish and money minded humanity because they just cant realise that they cant bring the useless money into their grave.---->Pointless

Country... Family... Life....

I had no idea what is all this for.. people in this world.. did you just work for money and you let the money get over your brain till you forgot what is the most important thing in life?
Have they ever try to GO BACK TO BASIC?
means.. back to the days where we had no fashionable cloths, no world class food, none of all those luxurious items that you wanting now? ARE YOU DEAd BACK THERE?
No! you are still alive.. but why you seems like dying without all those? why people are struggling without money?you forgotten that what's most important is not money.. is YOU and your FAMILY or FRIENDS...

Human.. just cant accept the changes that has vastly bring them down from the highest pit. Why not just try to flash back some of the days, back to the basic from where you came from.Since you can come from 0 to something then what's so hard for you back from Something to Nothing. Just a few alphabetically difference.

alright i just have to admit this is a place for me to throw all the shitty things of my days.

真心话

有时候会不会觉得做人什艰难？在公司，你不能说真心话因为同事大多数都多心的。他们最喜欢去猜测和猜疑你想什么，你做的是什么用意。往往会造成讲者无意听者有心。尤其是在lunch time时，A会说“呢，头先她说XXXXXX"， B答“又怎样?"A回“就证明他XXXXX".这个时候，头脑缺乏氧气的人就会脑神经不发达相信和同意。跟着就会答：“是哦！ 又好像是噢”。并没有想过他们所谓的证明，是真实的还是他们猜疑的？但是，如果你脑部有充分的氧气可是太多安多份因此很直接的否决了他的判断时，他们就会怀疑你是不是有别的原因。有时是不是很想站在中间，说句真心话？但是换来的只会是负面的回应。其实，我是很想告诉他们你不累吗？你总是在猜疑别人，你觉得这样做人开心吗？

就算是朋友，也未必肯听更和况是同事。有没有试过朋友找你诉苦时，他讲完后你想安慰她，开解他时你并不敢把心里的话讲出来？因为你我都知真心话是不好听，　而且不是每个人都想听。也或许你我都知，当一个人已经先入为主，他的脑已经自己的想法外人是很难改变。就算听了，他会不会去消化也是另一回事。反而有时候，向你诉苦的人很介意你怎样看他所以他的反应会更加激烈。我很想告诉她们，难道你不清醒的时候你不希望有人能敲一敲你？还是你觉得让你继续你的一套会开心？我不懂有没有十全十美的人，但是我想有缺陷就会有缺陷美，人活着就是要努力学习很多不同的东西包括接受周围的改变或则必须时改变自己。
山不转你就人转吧！
有时自我检讨也许可以得到某些启发，
有时听人意见也可以让自己看远一点，
还没想就拒绝就等于你还没吃那碗面就催眠自己那是粪。

我不否决如果坚持某些乐观的东西，因为有时候执着自己的理想才会经历不同的困难去丰富自己的人生。那时，就算他人不能接受你也得放开些。说到底，一个人不喜欢你还有千千万万个人没讨厌你。You cant please everyone.
这点我也是从别人身上学的。

Dizzy

Very dizzy.. i wanted to go home.. but i cant.. i need to work..
i wanted to try staying at work at least one week.. not having any problem..
but why am i always having so many issue on my health.. i am already very health concious..
Dad is not free to fetch me.. i have to wait for my brother till very late hour... i wish to ask dear dear.. but i dont wan to disturb..
words seems cant describe how uncomfortable i am now..
my head.. its very uncomfortable.. i seems like wanting to vomit
i close my eyes.. i cant fall asleep.. i just can feel that its so dizzy..
Worry of myself. .. god please.. i have too many things wish to do in my life and i have no chance to achieve it yet.. i wanted to go japan.. its my dream place.. i wanted to get marry and have my own house and family.. i want my own child.. i wan to be with my love one till my hair grow grey..
what is going on with me..