Something comfortable

looking at the christmas reddish flower and the purplish forget me not flower on my desk makes my sight comfortable today.
Listening to light and relaxing songs from David Archuleta, Tom Baxter makes me emotionally calm.
I suppose there will be lots of things could pull a person down in a day.
The matter of how you get yourself out of it, its pretty much depends on yourself..whether you want to do it or not.
Try to pull yourself out of current situation for sometime could help you gain some different tots. It may help you in your difficulties sometimes.

Carless, Speechless and Pointless

K i lead a life without a car in a BEAUTIFUL country that has the worst public transport facilities.dont ever think of the FANTASTIC taxi cause it has also the highest rape case from taxi driver in this country.-->Carless
Then i had the most FABULOUS mind own business S******* in the world that no one had ever had. Its raining and i have to get my ****i** ways back home.Even though this HANDSOME is going back to the same way-->Speechless
I am nothing but FANTABULOUSLY kind of pissed. no i am not pissed, i am just EXTREMELY stress, tired, exhausted, drained out on selfish and money minded humanity because they just cant realise that they cant bring the useless money into their grave.---->Pointless

Country... Family... Life....

I had no idea what is all this for.. people in this world.. did you just work for money and you let the money get over your brain till you forgot what is the most important thing in life?
Have they ever try to GO BACK TO BASIC?
means.. back to the days where we had no fashionable cloths, no world class food, none of all those luxurious items that you wanting now? ARE YOU DEAd BACK THERE?
No! you are still alive.. but why you seems like dying without all those? why people are struggling without money?you forgotten that what's most important is not money.. is YOU and your FAMILY or FRIENDS...

Human.. just cant accept the changes that has vastly bring them down from the highest pit. Why not just try to flash back some of the days, back to the basic from where you came from.Since you can come from 0 to something then what's so hard for you back from Something to Nothing. Just a few alphabetically difference.

alright i just have to admit this is a place for me to throw all the shitty things of my days.

真心话

有时候会不会觉得做人什艰难？在公司，你不能说真心话因为同事大多数都多心的。他们最喜欢去猜测和猜疑你想什么，你做的是什么用意。往往会造成讲者无意听者有心。尤其是在lunch time时，A会说“呢，头先她说XXXXXX"， B答“又怎样?"A回“就证明他XXXXX".这个时候，头脑缺乏氧气的人就会脑神经不发达相信和同意。跟着就会答：“是哦！ 又好像是噢”。并没有想过他们所谓的证明，是真实的还是他们猜疑的？但是，如果你脑部有充分的氧气可是太多安多份因此很直接的否决了他的判断时，他们就会怀疑你是不是有别的原因。有时是不是很想站在中间，说句真心话？但是换来的只会是负面的回应。其实，我是很想告诉他们你不累吗？你总是在猜疑别人，你觉得这样做人开心吗？

就算是朋友，也未必肯听更和况是同事。有没有试过朋友找你诉苦时，他讲完后你想安慰她，开解他时你并不敢把心里的话讲出来？因为你我都知真心话是不好听，　而且不是每个人都想听。也或许你我都知，当一个人已经先入为主，他的脑已经自己的想法外人是很难改变。就算听了，他会不会去消化也是另一回事。反而有时候，向你诉苦的人很介意你怎样看他所以他的反应会更加激烈。我很想告诉她们，难道你不清醒的时候你不希望有人能敲一敲你？还是你觉得让你继续你的一套会开心？我不懂有没有十全十美的人，但是我想有缺陷就会有缺陷美，人活着就是要努力学习很多不同的东西包括接受周围的改变或则必须时改变自己。
山不转你就人转吧！
有时自我检讨也许可以得到某些启发，
有时听人意见也可以让自己看远一点，
还没想就拒绝就等于你还没吃那碗面就催眠自己那是粪。

我不否决如果坚持某些乐观的东西，因为有时候执着自己的理想才会经历不同的困难去丰富自己的人生。那时，就算他人不能接受你也得放开些。说到底，一个人不喜欢你还有千千万万个人没讨厌你。You cant please everyone.
这点我也是从别人身上学的。

Dizzy

Very dizzy.. i wanted to go home.. but i cant.. i need to work..
i wanted to try staying at work at least one week.. not having any problem..
but why am i always having so many issue on my health.. i am already very health concious..
Dad is not free to fetch me.. i have to wait for my brother till very late hour... i wish to ask dear dear.. but i dont wan to disturb..
words seems cant describe how uncomfortable i am now..
my head.. its very uncomfortable.. i seems like wanting to vomit
i close my eyes.. i cant fall asleep.. i just can feel that its so dizzy..
Worry of myself. .. god please.. i have too many things wish to do in my life and i have no chance to achieve it yet.. i wanted to go japan.. its my dream place.. i wanted to get marry and have my own house and family.. i want my own child.. i wan to be with my love one till my hair grow grey..
what is going on with me..

Missed it

Aiks, felt slightly uncomfortable cause i missed the designing chance.
something that i wish to do but i missed the chance.
its so hard to describe the feelings of disappointment.
what can i do? though is unhappy but i am surely that i need to force myself to let go the glass from my hand or else its gonna stress me up.
its really .......

New from 0

new from 0Routers, IOS switch, DAPC, UPSi have no idea what is all this about. i have heard of the terms somewhere some how but i have no idea how it works. no one teach me, no one is going to spoon mouth me and what i can do is google and wikipedia. start to learn everything new from 0 by myself. it like you are starting your college life all over again. there is certain difficulties as no one understand and know what am i doing, they dont know what is my pressure.they dont know i am doing something that i have not learn and have no knowledge to it at all. forget bout it, i guess this is normal because people always sees things from the appearance only. to some people first impression determines their perception towards a person and same concept applys to what they sees when you are doing something that already gives them a perception. Even though they only see as an outsider and not the one that knows everything from head to toe then they already gives the judgement to it. Try tell others bout this , you will get such reply as.. " well , its commond what, isnt?". It sounds so frustrated that people just dont understand. In fact, what can you do?trying to change how other think? its hard but possible. Many people just got many emotion problem like depression and mental issue when they just cant figure out a way.I choose a better way,山不转就人转吧. Instead of wanting them not to think that way, i choose to concentrate on what i think i have or i should do right now. Ignoring other's is not easy but its not a bad option. Of coz, i cant do that in one day. Obviously, it has been struggling for sometime to figure out this conclusion. i might fail this mission anytime but i guess i have to fill my time fully. I can see that my boss sees me as a Network Idiot. Thanks god！！！！
I am learning.. learning hard in every single thing in my life... i have nothing special.. i am a not a soft gal, i talk loud and sometimes i am stupid in controling my emotion but what i have is i am just willing to learn. nothing more than that..

算了

她说她尝试告诉他，她的想法。很傻吧！都是过千百次，结果都是一样。这个男人根本就不管人家的感受，她又为什么一次又一次的去告诉他呢。得来的就只有失望的答案因为在他的眼中女人应该通情达理，不应该多多要求。其实，他只不过是不像在朋友面前出丑所以他根本不觉得他有不对的地方。就算他答应她，在他心里是“有又怎样？ ”。为什么，女朋友生病不重要。为什么不能让她觉得你在乎。为什么不能告诉朋友现在就走，你女朋友不再你朋友面前发难你不觉得她已经让步了吗？你懂吗？你有看到吗？她不舒服也迁就你，可是你却给的反应是如此的无奈。让人觉得失望。

她在想这些话是应该很激动吧，说真的她又能控制什么？就算他真的做事不顾她的感受，她又能怎样?这世界很多人应该都是这样的吧，而你都能接受。她不能接受他一次又一次的做了不顾她感受的时，很多东西都能让除了关于另一个女人的事才会令你根根于怀。
我们能做的又有多少？很多时候，没经历过时不会明白。他不明白爱人做了不顾感受的事是什么感受， 应该是因为他没试过八。
洋葱皮一层一层的撕，到肉时应该会让人难受。可是，不尝试过的人不会懂为什么一个普通的葱会让人自动流泪。

好难忍

今天， 又有故事了。
她真的无言，很不舒服可是也很失望。
身体不舒服是最弱的时候也是最需要关心的时候。
这时候如果还要因为他的不细心而忍让，真的很无言
女人很简单， 不舒服也很温柔的告诉他希望早点回家看医生。 其实，已经提示需要关心。
他却朋友的一句话，把不舒服的你放在最后。就算约定好早回也当没件事，先送朋友才载你去看医生。也没想看你明早要做工， 她觉得不被重视也不觉得他尊重你，答应了的事没做到。
很失望，不知失望变绝望会是怎样？ 应该好好地谈？
曾经式过用email, 当普通谈天的方式，凶方式，哭的方式，冷战的方式。又如何？
开始的太快，他从没让她觉得被assure 因为每次吵架时她想尽办法与他沟通。也试过气他说分手，换来的回答就只有一句“不合就分吧”。
人没有100分，感情也没有十全十美。事情发生时为什么不尝试解决或选择互相忍让好好地谈？
一句不合就分吧，让她觉得更无奈。 感情不是普通的游戏，就算凡事不用Extreme可是感情并不是你说合就一起， 不合就分手那么轻易。很多东西需要经历过才能达到共识，也许她只是希望被肯定。

Changes

Lunch gang is getting lesser and lesser people.
Everyone doesn't like the situation with their own team.
One by one is leaving, remaining 4 people but soon they will go as well.
Felt weird as changes is happening. Not sure how to adapt myself to it but I guess this is something I have to face in life.
Maybe I just missed the days where all of us is laughing and joking during our lunch.
Still remember when I was in my previous team, always longing for lunch time caused that will really give me a break and make me laugh no matter how hard and unhappy I am in my job.
All of them is really funny people.
Things change, though I wish it wouldn’t but I cant control. Everyone is moving on.
2 of them told me that they regret to leave but they have no choice because need to move on for new things and for better future. They have chosen the path and they have to adapt it no matter what.
I understand everything very well but my heart feels weird. I guess this is normal, everything takes time to be normalized.
Hope all of them the best in future. Missed the happy days.
i guess i am lucky to have such a good memory.
Life goes on. Everyone does that.

他们

那天听了一个他的故事。
他们7年自豪的感情，在结婚前3个星期做了一个令我预想不到的决定。
两年前，她因为工作必须留在别的州， 因此他们之间开始有距离。
他因为工作忙碌很少与她沟通，因此他们之间少了了解。
她在外地感到寂寞和苦闷，没人诉苦谈天可是她没告诉他。
他因为繁忙没告诉她工作预见的辛苦， 他们俩就因这样产生了问题可是并没察觉。
结婚前半年，他发现她有了另一个他。令他非常失落，他觉得很痛苦毕竟那是他们7 年的感情。他们终于讨论之间的问题。结果，她对他承诺不会再发生，而他决定原谅她。事情原以为已过一段落，可是结婚前3个星期他发现她偷偷的买了另一个电话与另一个他联络。当时的他脑袋一片空。请帖已分好了，酒席已经订好了，婚纱照也拍了。他们第二次讨论感情问题。他要她做出最后决定，两者间只能选其一。她让他知道她很想与他在一起，也让他知道为什么会发生这样的事。
他觉得他也有责任因为没有沟通，没让她了解他。他后悔以前没把心里话告诉她，让她觉得迷惑和空虚。大家把东西放在心底藏着才造成这样的局面。
当时的他觉得没有选择，因为婚礼已经落成了，他觉得他不年轻了，他觉得他很爱她不能没有她虽然她让他的心很疼。
就这样，他又选择与她继续下去。他们结婚了，她刚有了孩子。他说他现在很幸福， 没有后悔当初的决定可是伤痕永远都在。只要他想到他还会觉得痛， 他说裂缝永远都不会恢复。他永远都原谅不到她对他的欺骗与伤害。
男人总是把想法与心底话藏的很密，女人希望了解他时会觉得不知所措。
女人与他分享所有的东西时男人觉得反感，当女人不再告诉他而彼此的0沟通爆发种种问题时男人也许会醒觉沟通的重要可是会不会到无法挽回的地步没人能控制。男人的沉默女人觉得难以触摸， 久而久之女人会因此失去心中的归属感。
虽然听了会觉得，一段看起来很幸福美满的婚姻背后好像隐藏着一点破缝可是美中不足有时也有它的意义。
如果，她不让他痛他不会醒觉， 而她如果不反错就不会因内疚而清醒。
也许裂缝永远存在，可是如果把它看成彼此之间的Alert也不是件坏事。
人永远在变，变化如何由谁能定夺。

Alive!!

Yeah, i am still alive...
almost dead from the fever.. god knows what happen to me.
Getting sick once a month? due to the place i stay? some sort of bacteria caused?
i hope its not due to rat's ... gosh.. that vaccine only available in Korea..
i am hating myself. didnt i? forget bout it..
Many things have planned ahead.. and got canceled with slight unwillingness but many plans came up suddenly.. who knows.. what is going to happen the next moment..
He came to me and said " Hey are you alright? you have been very sick recently? you should go and consult doctor for a detailed check up. Please take care of your health its very important"
out of sudden, i felt that he is a caring person. Anyway.. though i didnt drink the tea he prepared for me, i didnt take the breakfast he prepared for me, i didnt read the health book that he offered me and i didnt look at him when i pass by but wish to say thank you to you HERE.. wahahahah which i dont think he would ever see this. It sounds bad but i knew that i am right not to giving him empty hope. Take it easy la.. She closed the heart's door due to him. What for you treat her so well where you not going to gain anything in the end? No trust but lust, no gain but pain.
i have plenty of plans up coming.. Weekend to Umaiya with Laypeng, i guess this is my 6th time to Umaiya buffet in this year.. is it? no.. anyway.. its the 6th or 7th time to this restaurant. Then Monday will have a gathering with Creden's friend. Tuesday got buffet in Jogoya with family. 20th of June going to genting with Scope colleagues. 19th of July going to Cameron with friends.
i doubt that my body can take it. Can i? no idea..

Breathless

6.05pm.. now i wonder why people said sometimes youfelt that minutes is passing like years.
i am so sick.. i wish to go back.. but off work at 6.30pm
He is so imature keep sending sms and nagging me to get down early.
i wish to go if i could.. its just so helpless when you are so sick and weak.. someone still gaves you pressure and so not understanding.
i am very weak now.. sick.. body ache..
please let me know what happen to me..
wishing someone ... someone.. can ...

He and She, 她与他

　　　“我啊，一个人又要做工看店又要看孩子，我真得不懂我是那么的厉害。他只会和朋友喝茶谈天打牌什么都不管”。她的嘴里总是露出很多抱怨，每次都会把多年前的事情办出来告诉身边的人她坎坷的人生。而他，也许因为老了，很少说话。　很多时候都很沉默，也没了以前的坏习惯。不打牌，少骂人反而多了一些不同的爱好；　比如说喜欢自己在厕所拿着镜子剪头发，与朋友玩中国棋。
　　　最近他们又闹哄了，两人没吵架可是也没谈天，葚之要其他人帮他们传话。她说“我怎么懂他，他先不和我说话我为什么要睬他”。孩子小的时候，他们三天一吵两天一骂所以童年的画面很深重。她嘴里从来没有突出对他满意的事情,而他却很少像她那样说以前.
他们曾经很有钱可是后来他因为生意失败而破产.他们常因钱吵架,她说" 我都不懂为什么会有人像他那样,那么容易信任别人". 他虽然破产可是还有办法把3个孩子送出国读书而她也有机会在英国参加女儿的毕业典礼.
孩子大了,经济可让她到处旅行而他因为还背着破产令10多年来也没旅行. 他每天都载女儿上班,载儿子上下学.这么多年来, 风雨不改也没什么埋怨. 她时常与友人出外唱歌聚会,他大多数在家看报纸. 可是,她嘴里还是不停的说" 当年我真命苦, 又要裁缝又要看孩子日子过的真酸."
他富有的时候不会吝啬家人,现在没有工作所以靠的是孩子的家用.她多年来都掌控着孩子给的钱, 每个月给点他.可是,这也没办法令她改变因为嘴里依然有当年的哭诉和不满.尖酸的话依然很多.
希望她能了解过去的没人能改变,以后的没人能掌握,现在应该可以做的应该是珍惜吧?上一代爷爷和奶奶,把仇恨与悲伤带进泥土, 希望这一代别跟随可是能吗?他曾经很大男人,太少关心家人可是老了也有改变,而她手里握着的杯从未放下过.
他与她就是我爸和我妈.. . . .

Aiks

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勇敢活下去

一波未平一波又起。总是有很多事真的不知应怎么办。
她终于生了孩子，这孩子她等了很久也试了很多方法。好可惜，她与家婆关系不好导致家婆不愿意帮她照顾刚出生的婴儿。 她以为妈妈会帮她，以为妈妈一定会体谅。可是，妈妈吐出不愿意的念头。妈妈的原因居然是她不想被绑着，照顾哥哥的孩子已经觉得没自由所以她不想再多照顾一个。现在的心情很酸， 不知道是因为担心她的孩子还是觉得 妈妈那样对她而觉得失望。 希望不要恢复以前那样没和气与冷淡。 这几天，妈妈不断在找出那孩子有多难带的地方， 不断的在怨。唉，这就是人类的自私吗？当你不愿做一件事，你会千方百计的找出可以拒绝的理由。还是她不懂得自足常乐。 她去过很多国家，曾经很富有， 可是她还是很多埋怨。有谁可以改变她呢? 改变她又会有什么结果？但是，她的埋怨和思想会影响身旁的人。不管我有多么的心烦和不悦，我也没办法该变。不是我不愿去尝试，而是我清楚的知道我在家中的地位就如人类与狗。我喊，也许有人听到可是有没有人去注意我想传达的讯息是一回事，又有没有人去用心去了解也是另一回事。 如果你的狗，你不去用心去听或了解他表达的讯息你是不会懂它的反应代表什么。我拿狗来形容自己应该很废吧。我也这样觉得。哈哈哈哈哈
祝她与她的孩子平安快乐，居然与那婴儿那么艰辛才相遇就别放弃，只要勇敢活下去什么问题都不是问题。加油！

累

透不到气，真的丁不顺了。
两年来，多难挨也挨了，多难听的也算了，多难过也过了。身边不懂的还以为我很强， 有些却希望我可以坚强多一些。
这两个星期真的度日如年。
真的觉得回了小学， 可是小学也开兴过这。 那种被绑着，监视着的感觉快令我窒息。活动的范围都被约束得好小。
好想哭，可是没时间去哭。每天都很累， 很累。
好想休息， 可是每逢周末都很忙。真的很想完全让自己什么都不想不担心， 看不见，听不到。 因为我真得很累，累倒我觉得身体每一寸都疲倦。
要不是因为合约的束绑， 我应该也离开了，可现在我必须忍。
每天在努力控制和压抑自己的愤怒。很希望有方法发泄，很渴望有个地方可以完全让我平静。 那会是那儿？

Hectic and pik Chic

i didnt really sleep well last night. As usual, i am having insomnia for MONTHS!!.. but Its happy to see him once i open my eyes.. he is there looking at me with a smile. I knew he is going to sleep after a long hour of night shift support, then i said " dear dear, go change your cloths please..."after that i heard both of them , Beh beh and dear dear is laughing.. well.. i guess.. they are both expecting me to say that and they laughed when the expected result are met... hahaha..
On my way out, M called asking bout the floating machine.. i told him i am working at 10. he keep asked lots of question that D did not make it clear to both of us. I asked him to confirm with D as he should know better. My luck isnt good today, federal highway is quite jam. For god sake, i reached office in 5 minutes after asking my colleague sent out the late notification. When i was trying to take out the floating machine, a wonderful brainless women called me and asked" Lauren, why are you here? isnt it you suppose to be in the training?" i really feel like telling her.. your beloved dog never gave me a clear idea what is the schedule and plan for today. Then i head over to another building for the training. I got to know then, the beloved retarded sent out the schedule on sunday, 9pm!!!!! saying that there is a training at 10am on monday!!!! i am really speechless towards him. No sms, no call and he expect that the email he sent would flow from the fiber optic to the satelite and to my brain , just some how i guess.. i wonder how does his brain works..and just becoz of that, out of no where, and no reason i was question by a wonderful brainless women.
Well, i did had a nice lunch with my lunch gang.. but night mares isnt over yet.. after lunch.. i head back to the room and continue my work with those people.. human... dunno from what species are they.. the moment.. they started the project.. their mouth, brain, vains all..mess up together.. Group A keep questioning, finding fault, Group B keep defending and fighting back.. Group C some how sometimes.. will hitted by the bullet .. and then.. started to look for solution.. what a day with all this humans.. they are just impatience, hot tempered, and not passionate..
i dont know how long i can stand all this.. they could make me so stress in the room cause i am the so call BABY sitting the user.. my wonderful brainless superior.. would be very sensative if there is a slight mistake occur.. this could really make my constipation become severe...
i have no time to refill water.. no time to rest.. no time to eat even i am hungry.. after the day .. i felt dizzy and exhausted.... i am truely drained out
HR called.. 2 job vacancy is waiting for me.. 2 managers request to interview me.. SCM release specialist or production support front line.. shall change my job? or shall i continue with this group of what.. i dunno.. i cant find a word to describe human in that form.. for god sake!!!
oh.. i think its time for me to sleep.. its just so liveless working there.. i spent the whole day for that job.. and yet i am truely deeply understand that brainless superior will not see that.. people always see the dark spot .. i am tired coz i knew that my effort is invisible..
Dear dear said, its her problem to question me that way, Its the dog's problem to sent out email that time.. he is right.. but after all.. i was the one to be blame..
forget bout it.. its 11.12.. i have to sleep.. today's smelly shit will be flush away as tomorrow will be another challenging day. if i were to keep today's headache towards tomorrow.. then i will add on my burden caused there will be some other disaster ahead, so why not.. let it go right~~~
lets shout" YOU ALL ARE REALLY A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!" and go to bed..
its just a day of less fortunate... caused.. there are still many things and people that makes me feel happy in this world.. the rest of you can go to hell.. when your time is here.. got it!!!! YOU ... brainless... and WONDERFUL!!!!
opps... am i too rude.. sorry.. .
Oh my god.. i cant imagine myself writing my dairy in here.. first time.. i used to write it in my dairy.. and leave it there.. somewhere.. lost it.. HAHAHAHHAHA
ok.. should end now..

Yee... i am shy...my first time >_<

well.. this is my first blog ... as mentioned in my title.. i am shy.. ~~yeeee...dont look at me~~...
Since its the first time.. i really had no idea what to write ( a very common and boring opening, right =.=") but seriously.. i dunno what to say and what to write,
english level 0.5,
chinese level 0.5,
malay level 0.1 ,
indian level 0.001,
japanese level 0.3.....
All add together cant even reach 10.. how how how....
i am bad in math and poor in any language writing.....but i am 100% not Retarded !!! hahahhaa
i have no idea.. what a blog really mean for..
i was told that it is for people to express themselves keep them busy..
some say its a dustbin to throw words for nothing.... just simply..
but for me... as i am crazy soon you will see.
AHHAAHHAHA
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dont ask.. cannot comment.. i got H5N1 that will transfer via fiber optic....hahahhaha